Just a Shadow left

[0:41 – 1:01]
Shadow in the city light
Walking down another thought
Woke up to another lie
Found what he hadn’t sought

[1:01 – 1:22]
Amazing how she killed with words
Someone said she’s just another spell
When you’re falling and you hit the ground
You’ll see that someone knew too well

[1:22 – 1:29]
WAKE UP
CLIMB UP
I’d love to see you crawl

[1:46 – 2:07]
Shadow on the city hall
Tagging of a lonely soul
Dancer before the fall
Why can’t you let her go?

[2:07 – 2:28]
Embracing all her killing words
Someone said she’s just another hell
When you’re falling and you hear the sound
You’ll see that someone knew too well

[2:28 – 2:42]
WAKE UP
CLIMB UP
I’d love to see you crawl

WAKE UP
CLIMB UP
I’d love to see you crawl

[3:02 – 3:18]
Amazing how you (WAKE UP) killed by words
Someone said (CLIMB UP) from just another hell
When you (WAKE UP) and you hit the ground
You’ll know that someone knew too well

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Killing Me Inside

[0:17 – 0:35]
So I sit in my chair staring into the night
Trying to remember your reasons to fight
The moments we lived through, the memories we shared
Are passing my eyes, before they’re shot UNPREPARED

[0:35 – 0:53]
Let me do it once again
I’ll go one more day through hell for you
Just to feel how you and this pain
Are killing me inside

[1:02 – 1:20]
Still I sit in my chair, my hands tied to the rest
Knowing the answers but failing your test
My needles in your skin, your gun in my mouth
Please, pull the trigger, blow you OUT (OF MY HEAD)

[1:20 – 1:47]
Let me do it once again
I’ll go one more day through hell for you
Just to feel how you and this pain
Are killing me inside

[1:47 – 2:41]
[spoken]:

“Here I am / sitting in this chair / depending on your mercy
You spit in my face / you tear out my heart
Still I don’t make a sound

There you are / staring at this chair / depending on your mercy
You scream in my face / you tear at my soul
Still I don’t make a sound

Here we are / united, yet parted by this chair / the witness of no mercy
We both played this game / we both died in vain
Still I don’t make a sound”

[2:48 – 3:06]
One last round in my chair and I don’t say a word
Trying to remember you the way that you were
The moments we lived through, the memories and all
How they still stay with me LONG AFTER THE FALL

[3:06 – 3:24]
Let me do it once again
I’ll go one LAST day through hell for you
To feel how you and this pain
Tried killing me inside

When Push Comes To Shove

[0:26 – 0:34]
We are the egotistical pigs of a new generation
The self-made gods, the pride of a nation
It’s only ourselves that we see in the mirror
It’s only then that we answer our prayers

[0:34 – 0:43]
Digital prostitution of a heart and a soul
When we’re mentally naked is when we feel whole
A hole is the start of an opening abyss
Who are you to point a gun to MY CHEST?

[0:43 – 1:09]
Blow my mind, blow it away
I won’t mind, blow it away
But when push comes to shove
Who’s to RUN? Who’s to STAY?

[1:27 – 1:36]
We rise from the graves we dug for our fathers
Digesting our lies, feed them to our mothers
Searching for truth but we missed her
That’s why we’re killing our brothers and raping our sisters

[1:36 – 1:44]
Digital frustration of a heart and a soul
When we’re mentally raging is when we feel whole
A hole is the start of an opening abyss
Who are you to point a gun to MY CHEST?

[1:44 – 2:10]
Blow my mind, blow it away
I won’t mind, blow it away
But when push comes to shove
Who’s to RUN? Who’s to STAY?

[2:50 – 2:58]
We are the egoistical pigs of a new generation
The self-made gods, the final destination
We see only ourselves in the glass of a mirror
It’s only then that we answer our PRAYERS

[2:58 – 3:25]
Blow my mind, blow it away
I won’t mind, blow it away
But when push comes to shove
Who’s to RUN? Who’s to STAY?

[3:28 – 3:51]
Blow my mind, BLOW IT AWAY
I won’t mind, BLOW IT AWAY
But when push comes to shove
Who’s to RUN? WHO’S TO STAY?

Over You

[0:16 – 0:42]
It has been awhile
We have been a RAY OF LIGHT
Every night I kissed your lips I felt the fire burn
And every night it wasn’t clear HOW FAST THE TIDE WOULD TURN

[0:42 – 1:07]
We have been a feel
You have never FELT TOO REAL
Every day I saw your face your eyes have been so cold
And every day the story changed THE TRUTH WAS STILL UNTOLD

[1:07 – 1:34]
I took my heart – I ran away – before it was too late
I bled a lot – along the way – then my love turned to hate
Shot you out of sight – blew you out of mind
Then I got over you

[1:42 – 2:07]
We have been a try
You have been THE REASON WHY
Everything I built for us came finally crashing down
And everything surrounding us DIED WITHOUT A FUCKING SOUND

[2:24 – 2:41]
I took my heart / I ran away
I bled a lot / along the way
I took my heart / I ran away
I bled a lot / along the way
I took my heart / I ran away
I bled a lot / along the way

[2:41 – 3:08]
I TOOK MY HEART / I RAN AWAY (TOO LATE)
I BLED A LOT / ALONG THE WAY (TO HATE)
(SHOT YOU) OUT OF SIGHT / (BLEW YOU) OUT OF MIND
OVER YOU

[3:16 – 3:42]
It has been awhile (WE HAVE BEEN A LIE)
You have been a WASTE OF TIME
Every time I pushed us through you have pulled us back
And every time a train came by YOU TIED ME TO THE TRACKS

[3:42 – 4:08]
I took my heart – I ran away – before it was too late
I bled a lot – along the way – then my love turned to hate
Shot you out of sight – blew you out of mind
Then I got over you

[4:08 – 4:34]
I took my heart (MY HEART) – I ran away (AWAY) – before it was too late (TOO LATE)
I bled a lot (MY BLOOD) – along the way (AWAY) – then my love turned to hate (TO HATE)
Shot you out of sight (OUT OF SIGHT) – blew you out of mind (OUT OF MIND)
Then I got over you

Ride the Bomb

[0:27 – 0:41]
I can feel the fire burning inside
More oil (MORE OIL) to keep it alive
Stick your fucking fingers into the wounds
More salt (MORE SALT) I wanna feel the swoon

[0:41 – 0:54]
Take another step towards another tomb
Still born (STILLBORN) straight from the womb
Fire another bullet right into my back
More lead (MORE LEAD) please make the pain come back

[0:54 – 0:57]
I’m on step from ignition

[0:57 – 1:17]
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)

[1:25 – 1:39]
Stab one more knife into this heart of mine
Deeper (DEEPER) ‘til I feel the blade inside
When you lie, please look into my eyes
I feel (I FEEL) that now I wanna die

[1:39 – 1:42]
I’m on step from ignition

[1:42 – 2:12]
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)

Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb! (BOMB)
Do not ride the bomb…BOMB!!!

[2:28 – 2:41]
Do not ride the
Do not ride the
Do not ride the
Bomb!

To Forget

I. Between the Threshold and the Door

[0:05 – 0:26]
To forget. To stop thinking.
About you. About me.
About us.
What we were. What—
we could have been
What we are
Now

[0:26 – 0:58]
From friends to lovers to strangers
From a symphony to a line in a song that’s already been sung. A sequence of notes never to be played again. A dissonant chord echoing through the vast emptiness of life. A fading sound.

[0:58 – 1:09]
Hopelessly lost. Dying.

II. The Room

[1:30 – 2:13]
I sit in this sterile room. Memories of you leaking through the cracks in the walls. Trying to capture the moment. Trying to freeze it, own it, when suddenly I realize the clock doesn’t care. The arms keep moving. Hours pass like seconds and then you’re gone.

[2:13 – 2:50]
Saying the words feels like cigarette burns on my skin. Small scars where you should be.
There’s a window and I look out. The world – my – world is stuck between gray clouds and a blue sky. Rocking back and forth. Never steadying itself. A constant motion between hope and despair.

[2:50 – 3:22]
I breathe on the glass and try to trace your name through the condensation. The letters vanish with the cold that spreads around the room – around me – and only my fingerprints remain on the glass. I can’t take my hands off the cold glass for fear of losing you. For fear of letting go.

[3:22 – 3:42]

Again
I kiss you
I touch you
I hold you
Never – again

III. Back in the House

[4:01 – 4:20]
It’s time to leave now. I have to go. I can leave the room whenever I want. Enter, whenever I need, only to see that you are not there. Never will be.

[4:20 – 4:51]
When I leave the room a piece of me will stay inside with the ghosts of my memories.
When I close the door the peace in me stays behind, falling victim to the specters.
Walk with me through the house instead of being a haunting presence in its many rooms.

[4:51 – 5:12]
I hear your voice in every song on the radio.
I see your face in every picture on the TV.
See a madman in the mirror.
I see me.

[5:12 – 5:44]

If I blow my brains out, will you be gone?
There’s a body lying on the floor.
You stare down from the walls.

What I’m up to

Over the next weeks I’m going to post a series of lyrics I wrote in 2011 and/or 2012 (I don’t remember exactly), except for the first text (To Forget). It was written today because I was missing some kind of an intro to my project. The other texts were all written in the course of several weeks and helped me to deal with some problems I had at the time and thoughts that would not stop haunting me. At the the end of the series I’ll do a post that contains all the lyrics so those interested will have them as a collection. Unfortunately, the collection or project has no name yet, so I’ll publish the lyrics under their respective names. I hope you’ll enjoy my posts and would appreciate your thoughts and comments.